index

2025.06.30 transitory thoughts
2025.04.26 adventure
2024.11.19 untitled social manifesto
2024.08.16 A 97-Year-Old Philosopher Faces His Own Death
2024.07.30 the emotional whiplash of ordinary events
2024.07.19 im turning over in my sleep
2024.07.18 the way i experience life is heavily informed by the languages i know
2024.07.08 one-sided resurrections
2024.07.06 screenshot of a memo on the iphone notes app
2024.06.24 in an alternate universe
2023.08.04 how can i sleep when i know my dreams will hold me hostage?
2023.07.22 it’s 5am. you are so, so thirsty
2023.05.14 i'm really good at being alive
2023.05.01 it's been a decade since she left
2023.03.29 a student answers the professor's question
2023.03.24 you give it all away when you talk
2023.03.03 you don't exist, and that makes it ok
2023.02.22 you leave everything everywhere
2023.01.28 when you finally come back to your house
2023.01.14 you love drinking
2023.01.07 you don’t visit your grandparents
2023.01.04 excerpts from my notes app in 2022
2022.12.29 is this thing even gonna fly?
2022.12.23 baby get in my truck
2022.12.20 who's afraid of repetition
2022.12.20 glasses and time anxiety
2022.12.20 you got me liquid courage for my birthday

originally posted on cohost

you don’t visit your grandparents on your mother’s side that often, not nearly as much as those on your father’s side. your father’s parents are obligatory people. everything you know of their history, you've heard within closed doors and through words unspoken.

your mother’s parents live in the same house she grew up in. they tend to plants they’ve been raising for decades, and their bookshelves hold everything their children have written. family photos line the walls, frames intricate, wooden.

people don’t frame the photographs they don’t care about. your world is ephemeral and minimalistic and burdened. you thought you didn’t know what it was like to be stationary, to be rooted to a house for more than three years at a time. but you return here every other year.

this place stays the same. the people stay the same. your face, still, in that big family photograph above your grandmother's bedroom door.